As Phoenix Rising From the Ashes - Poem
75The inspiration for these rictameter poems came from reading another hub published by Vincent Moore just a few moments ago.Through this Door of Silent Tears
My poem is about breaking free of the torment and pain that anyone who has been abused as a child suffers.It is about healing. Turning your back on the past and looking to the future.
Learning to fly free again , with a whole heart.
To Rise Again
To rise
From this hot mire
To douse the flames of pain
As they lick and claw at my soul
And strangle the heart that lies within me
How the memories suffocate
Chaining me to the past
Lord give me strength
To rise
To Awaken
Awake
My crying heart
Fly free of this abyss
Slice the ropes that bond so tightly
Now is the time to cast the torment out
Heal my soul and rise again like
Phoenix from the ashes
And from these tears
Awake
Stepping Through the Door
Step through
The door of past
And throw away the key
No more wasted tears to be shed
For this vessel is now empty and dry
Let light shroud the darkest shadows
Throw open the windows
Do not look back
Step through
Live With a Peaceful heart
With peace
Let the dawn break
Let birdsong fill my ears
Let my eyes see beyond the gloom
Let me take hold of life and celebrate
Let my heart nestle in beauty
Let the sun warm my soul
Let me live now
With peace
© Rosemary Sadler Jan 2012
EDIT
I wanted to add an extra note to this for those who have suffered abuse as a child
I truly believe that getting rid of all the ‘HATE’ that is deep inside you is the biggest key to finding closure and. peace
Yes I know you really hate (with every ounce of your being) that person who abused you and rightly so.
But that hate is like an abscess full of poison. It eats away at you
You need to ask your self 4 questions just like I did
- Does that person know you hate them?
- Does that person care that you hate them?
- Is that person still alive?
- Who is that hate hurting?
I can’t answer the first 3 for you but I can answer the 4th one.
The ONLY person that HATE is hurting is YOU
I am not asking you to forgive that person or forget what happened, that is your choice, but if you can dig out that abscess of HATE then and only then will the pain start to ease and only then can you start on the road to closure and peace.
This is what I believe from my experience only
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Hi Vinaya
Nice to see you posting first.
Yes phoenix rising from the ashes, as the soul heals and rises from the pain. To live again with peace.
Thank you for the lovely compliment Vinaya, your vists are always appreciated.
Hello Rosemay. I am not use to this style of poetry. You seem to have a knack for it. Great sentiment portrayed in your beautiful poetry.
Beautiful Rosemary,
A poem of hope..just wonderful.
Hugs,
Sunnie
Love is always good to be talked. My friend, you have something amazing in your poem. I really love this poem, Rated up!
Phoenix a symbol of new beginning. A new beginning after abuse.
Your beautiful words brought tears to my eyes. You write so well!!
Thank you.
Morning Mike
This style seemed to suit the semtiment or the other way around.
Thank you for the lovely compliment, your visits are always appreciated.
Thank you Sunnie. It is a lways a pleasure to see you.
Thank you for stopping by
Hugs
Good morning Prasetio
Thank you for your wonderful compliments
I am pleased you liked this one.
Thank you for stopping by and for the vote Your visits are always appreciated
Hi SanneL
It can take years if ever for someone who has been abused as a child to find peace in themselves.
It is a compliment indeed to have this poem move you to tears.
Thank you
Hugs
Had to give your poem a vote up as well as beautiful. It gives hope to those who hurt or have been through it.
Hi GTS
There are a lot of people hurting out here so I hope my poem reaches them and gives them hope a measure of peace.
Thank you for the compliment as well as the vote.
Take care.
Hi Rosemay
Simply beautiful.
Voted up and away.
Hi Sue
Thank you for the compliment and the vote
I like your new profile picture
You sure reach me. I just found out that I had something in me that's keeps giving me pain. I will try what you've written about to get that out of me. Thank you Rosemay.
Vote up beautiful and Awesome.
Aw writer20 I am sad to hear that you have something causing you pain. If you have cried all your tears and can shut the door on that memory and live in peace within your self, you will feel a weight lift from your heart.
If my poem helps you to do this then I am very happy.
Thank you
Love the way you have brought word, though and passion into hope in this poem... well done.
Blessings and Hugs
Rolly my dear friend how nice it is to see you here.
Thank you for your kind compliment
Blessing and hugs
Awesome hub
Talented, beautiful and full with passion....that's you, my friend. I love your poem and it always the best. Keep on writing. Rated up!
Prasetio
Thank you Deborah for taking the time to coma and read this poem. You are always appreciated
Hi Prasetio
Such wonderful praise and compliments has me blushing.
I am pleased you enjoyed reading this.
Your visits and votes are always apreciated very much
What a powerful and inspirational poem about heartache and the ability to overcome the pain of past experiences.
Voted up across the board except for funny.
Thanks so much for writing on this important topic. Not everyone overcomes the torment of past abuse, but those who do will resonate with this poem and those who haven't been able to overcome the pain of the past will find hope in the words that you've written.
BTW: Your new profile pic is absolutely stunning.
Hi Gail
There are so many people suffering and suffering in silence. I hope this poem gives them hope and a lttle encouragement to try and shut those nightmares out. If it brings peace to just one person then it was worth writing.
Thank you for reading and the vote is much appreciated.
P.S the photo is 30 years old. Lol
Up, awesome, and beautiful Rosemay. A great collection of well written and meaningful poetry. I am quite sure hope will rise from this article. Hope all is well and have a blessed day Rosemay. Catch you later.
Hi Ricky
I hope this reaches those that are hurting and gives them hope.
Thank you fgor always supporting me and for being such a good friend.
have a wonderful day.
I was just feeling so low for the past few days.And it's today only, that I have been able to control myself as the problems have seem to step aside.Reading your poem truly touched my heart ...it was like some one had written my predicament.I can't tell you ....but I really got a new hope.Thanx a lot!
I will need to bookmark this poem:)
Oh Harsheen I am so moved by your comment. I am sorry to hear you are have been feeling very low. I know it's hard at times to get through the days. I have been there so I understand my friend.
Write about it, you don't have to publish it here, but writing about it will help, I promise.
I am glad my poem has reached you and given you new hope. Please come back and read it again whenever you feel down and know that you have many good friends here on hubpages who care very much for you.
Take care my friend I am sending you big hugs.
Thanks a lot Rosy ...................[ I would take the liberty to call you that!] :)
Words of hope - beautifully written poetry.
Voted up/awesome
Beautiful Rosemary, Free from the chains of the past..Wonderful...
Hi Harsheen You're welcome.
Thank you for asking what you may call me, I don't like Rosy(it reminds me of a milking cow, Lol) but I don't mind if you call me Rose.
Thank you
Hi Lesley Always a pleasure to see you
I am pleased you appreciated this
Thank you for the lovely compliment and for voting.
Hi Ruby
Always nice to see you my friend
If this can give someone hope then I am happy.
Thank you for the compliment
wow...this is awesome...a very beautiful poem of hope and surpassing life's adversities...you did it again Rosemay...
You have deep feelings about this topic, Rosemay, whether from personal experience or a sense of compassion for others. Your offer words to help heal, and that is so important. I liked this entire poem but particularly this line:
"Now is the time to cast the torment out".
Beautiful work from a beautiful lady and you are beautiful. Hugs, Peg
Rosemay, I find this very sad and distressing, initially, but as each new poem (or part of the greater piece) came forward it made me feel that you have, or shortly will have, been cleansed and had pure closure from a troublesome past.
Lovely, sensitive work.
So sorry ...didn't mean to offend you . But , any hows Rose sounds really better :)
Wow brilliant and I have to award that up up and away here.
Take care and enjoy the rest of your day.
Eddy.
Morning Raciniwa
Thank you for coming by to read and for leaving such a lovely compliment.
I hops this reaches people who are hurting
No offence taken at all Harsheen I am pleased that you want to call me Rose.
Thank you
Evening Eddy
Thank you for your continued support, it is always a pleasure to see you
Morning Peg
I was abused in all the ways a child could be abused, so I know the pain that lies inside and never really leaves. It is a torment because it comes back and bites you on the bum when least expected
I hope that this does help others heal too and lets them know they are not alone.
Thank you for reading this and for your wonderful compliments
Ian thank you for reading and for your insight.
I now know that ‘HATE’ is the key. I woke one morning a while ago feeling different and looked deep inside myself. I made a conscious decision that day to stop hating those that abused me; they didn't know nor care and were not even living. The only person that hate was hurting was me. From that day on I felt a lot lighter and you know what … I wrote this and for the first time I didn't even cry and it hasn't thrown me into depression for days on end.
Yes cleansed and closure.
To Rise Again
Takes the strength many times from
a force greater than ourselves. Dousing the flames
of our past is surely a huge step and thus the Phoenix
will be born within our souls and yes indeed it will
suffocate and put out the fires from our past.
To Awaken
Is like angelic music to our ears freeing us
from the grip of the deep and dark Abyss. A newness,
a blessing of relief, the freedom to live and survive and
mature into what God created us to do.
Stepping Through the Door
Taking this most important step
a giant leaf for oneself from the past to your present and leaving all the muck and mire and filth behind, slamming shut the door as I have done in my last piece as Saddlerider. The weathered, peeling ugly door that harboured my monster is buried forever.
Live With a Peaceful heart
Feel alive and listen to your heart and let
it take you to magical places where butterflies float and Lilies sway gently in the noon day breeze. Find and live in peace with yourself, forgive yourself and everyone who hurt you from your past and move forward towards the mark
of heavenly bliss.
Saddle will Answer for himself the 4 questions posted.
1. Yes he knew I hated him
2. No he never cared about anybody or anything but
himself and his rotten soul.
3. No he died a miserable death at the end of his shirt thatwas taken from him and used to strangle him in his cell.
4. My hatred hurt me more than I ever knew possible. It took me all these years to let go. And with the help of my writing, I was able to close the horrible door with a
a very loud slam.
To all of you out there who may be hurting from Abuse know this. There is a way out, there
are people who will help and give you loving support. Don't ever shun them let them take
you in their arms and loving care and together you can fight off these demons that are sent to
us dressed as humans. Forgive yourself and forgive them and move on. You are made in the
image of our creator. Love yourself first and you will always love one another. Peace and
blessings from the Saddlerider. He has turned the torch over to Vincent to carry whilst he is
finally in retirement and enjoying the green pastures provided by his maker
Thank you Ken. I hope this is widely seen and read by those who need to heal.
Rosemay, your reply to me brought tears to my eyes.
Bless you, and I am so glad things are beginning to unravel and that you can face the world, and your bleak memories without hatred now.
Thank you for coming back and for your compassion Ian.
It took me far too long to reach the end of this tunnel. But I am here now and at peace with myself. Whats past is past and cannot be undone.
Wonderful Passages in your Poem Rosemay...Being abused can Never completely go away or disappear, the scars are there...But the Journey is worth the trip. A very Memorable and Heartfelt read. Thank you for sharing.
Hi B Malin
No the scars will never go away or memories be forgotten. But we can reach a point where it is not ruling our lives. When we can actually like ourselves. When we can come to terms with it and no longer see ourselves as 'damaged goods'. We can talk or write about it openly without feeling shame. When we realise the shame was not ours to bear.
Yes I can still read something that will bring the memories back and the stab of pain. But it no longer brings anger or hate.
Thank you for reading my friend
This is beautiful... so poignant and hopeful... powerful poetry here. Have a blessed day!
Thank you Sof for coming by and reading and leaving such a lovely compliment
You have a blessed day too
Rosemary50 it is a very well written poem.. even though there are so many poems and writes about Phoenix Rising from Ashes.. wow I typed out asses.. glad I caught it phew.. this one stand out from the ashes loudest I loved it :) Frank
Hi Frank If you hadn't caught it, it would have given me a smile, and you have given me one anyway. Lol.
Thank you for that tremendous and very kind compliment.
Thank You! (smile)
You're welcome Tim. Thank you for reading... :-)
I have been fortunate in that I was never abused or mistreated in any way. I'm thankful for that. I can't imagine how I would react. Could I forgive? I don't know. Goodnight.
Mary I appreciate you coming along to read this. It is a question I ask myself, and the answer is always 'No', they had no excuse to behave as they did. But I did dig out the hate and anger, they are dead now and what reward or peace comes from hating a dead person. So no I can't forgive nor forget but I am calmer within myself, I feel a peace that helps me through each day.
Goodnight Mary
Rosemay,
This may be the most poignant piece I have read by you.
I am so proud to be your friend with your capacity to reach out to Vincent from your own experiences and help so many others in the process. Releasing ourselves of the ugly behavior of others is truly the only way any of us can move on from the tragedies of our past.
Your heart is as big as the sky. Your inner peace and calm is a beautiful thing. Love, Maria
Maria your heartfelt comment has touched deeply. If this helps just one person I would be pleased, I will probably never know, but I hope it helps many.
Thank you for being among the special friends who have helped me write about this. You are a blessing and a treasure. Love Rosemary
Rosemary, I have never been abused so I can only imagine the pain and hate that you have lived with. I am so happy that you have gotten rid of the hate. Hate kills just as surely as a bullet. I had a friend who hated and it killed her. She died from a fast growing cancer. I still miss her and it is many years later. This was a beautiful poem with such meaning.
Thank you Becky. It was eating away at me but I was only hurting myself more because of this. I was lucky enough to realise this and strong enough to deal with it. It was like emerging from a dark tunnel, I felt so much better in myself that this was lifted from me. It was a huge step in my life.
Thank you for coming along to read this
Your hub is awesome. I guess live for the moment, never think about the past, look forward and march on is the secret to moving on, though very difficult to do. Not impossible. Voted up. Awesome.
Hello Vellur
Yes it does no good to live in the past, to look forward is the only way, it's so hard to take that first step but gets easier as time passes. First we must look inside ourselves and learn to love ourselves.
Thank you for reading this
This is so magical deep expressive poetry, I am smitten with your exceptional rictameter skills! This is such an overwhelming, emotional journey to which I can sadly relate, love your passionate message, it's very thoughtful of you!
Hello Max
You know it overwhelms me just how many people can relate to this subject. It is heartbreaking and it makes me sad that you too can relate.
Now is the era when those who have lived with the pain of this for many, many years are able to open up.
Thank you, I am smiling that you are 'smitten' with my skills, so thank you for this.
Vinaya Ghimire Level 8 Commenter 4 months ago
Phoenix is a symbol of resurrection, you have wonderfully used this imagery in your poetry.
"Heal my soul and rise again like" I loved this line very much.